Month Four: The Good, The Bad & The Ugly.

When you do something as drastic as having a gastric bypass, there are always risks.  You hear everyone's horror stories and hope that you are making the right decision.  With any major life decision, there are good, bad things that result from our choices. 


People ask me, all the time, "are you glad you did it, " or, "would you do it again?"  The answer to both of those questions is an overwhelming, "YES!"


The Good


Today, I had my 4 month (post surgery) check in with Weight Loss Services at Spartanburg Regional.  It's official, I have lost 75 pounds!  My second goal is met & that is a great feeling!  They also measured me and I have now lost 10 inches off my waist. 


The Bad


The weight loss has gotten slower these past few weeks, thankfully I haven't gained an ounce.  I attribute it mostly to my new job where I sit on my behind all day long!  (Side note:  I might invest in an large exercise ball to sit on at my desk!) Nonetheless, I have a plan.  When money is a little better, I am going to join Trinity Health & Fitness, which is where my friend Christiane goes.  (Another side note, she has lost 140 pounds!-- she inspires me!).  In the meantime, I am going to start getting in my Aunt June's pool 3 to 4 days a week after work.  Not only is the pool good exercise, but it will be great on my ailing hip bones that seem to have turned against me.  


The Ugly


The one thing that gastric bypass patients are always concerned about is losing our hair.  When you drastically limit your food intake, you are also reducing your intake of things that your body really needs.  Like protein, vitamins and minerals.  Taking supplements is just an everyday part of life after bypass.  I knew I wasn't getting enough protein.  However, I have never been a big meat eater.  I just don't care for it much.  So, when my hair starting falling out in, what seemed to be, handfuls in the shower, it really freaked me out.  Don't get me wrong, any of you probably wouldn't even notice.  But, I do!  My sweet husband even pointed out the "birds nest" of hair in the bathroom.  So this week, Aunt June, cut some layers in my hair to make it look fuller, and now, you really can't tell at all.  Thank God!   When I was at the doctor today, we discussed it.  Thankfully, I was told that the amount I have lost is normal for my post op time.  I was assured that if I keep my protein intake up, it won't get any worse.  So, just to be safe, I purchased high protein shakes to compensate for my lack of meat consumption.  Who wants to be thin if you have to be bald, right? :) 


And speaking of ugly, let's leave the loose skin issue for another day!  


Love to you all.

On Magic Mike & Christian Accountability

It seems that everyone, mostly Christians, have an opinion on Magic Mike, particularly when it relates to the subject of Christian accountability.  Although, the Internet, especially Facebook, has become a platform for opinion and conjecture,  I haven't, until now, weighed in on this particular topic.  It seems there are two schools of thought. First, there is the group that believes there is nothing wrong with Christian (women in this case) seeing movies with strippers and rated "R" material, it's entertainment only.  One the other hand, you have those (again mostly Christian women) who are flabbergasted that any Christian women would watch such and believe that it is a sign of poor virtue and complete worldliness.  Lastly, you have women from both groups that feel so strongly about their position (regardless of which side they choose) that are very public about justifying their own choice or belief, even some going as far as calling out other women, some in love, some not.  

I suppose I fall somewhere in the middle of all of this.   I think scripture can speak for itself, so let's look at a few about holiness and purity, to start.

 "I will set no unclean thing before my eyes.", Psalm 101:3, and Philippians 4:7, 8 "Keep your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus... Whatsoever things are pure... if there be any virtue... think on these things."

A couple of examples here that I have seen used in reference to this topic.  I think scripture is really clear about what it's saying here.  

It seems to me the question then changes from "Should I watch Magic Mike?"  and becomes more of a question of whether you feel that the material is impure, unclean or lacking in virtue.   I don't believe that those questions we can answer for one another, but only ourselves.


A friend posted this on Facebook:  

 "This is not aimed towards anyone specifically, but I have to say I am VERY disappointed in how many Christian ladies that I know that are either reading 50 Shades of Gray or going to see Magic Mike. Ladies where are your Godly standards? Just because everyone else is doing it doesn't mean its OK for you to do it. Just ask yourself as you read the book or watch the movie is this something God would approve of if He were right beside me, does this honor God in any way?. Please reconsider your actions because you may be the only Jesus people see! OK I am stepping off of my soap box, just had to get that off of my chest!" M.R. 

Another said this: 

"Concerning Magic Mike and 50 Shades...it seems to me the only important player in the equation is your spouse. No need to hold everyone you know (and don't know) accountable for things they never asked you to hold them accountable for :)" M.B.

In a way, I completely agree with both of them!  Like I said, I am some where in the middle on this.  

Finally, someone else posted this: 

 "I have never done this before, but since everyone else is allowed to express their opinion, I have the right to express mine as well! I am so tired of seeing people post things about Magic Mike and how sinful it is! If we are going to judge others for going to see a movie, then all of us need to take a long hard look in the mirror! I went to see magic mike last night and thought is was very entertaining! I am just thankful that God's judgment is the only judgment that matters. Every sin is the same in the eyes of God, whether it be having an affair, having a baby out of wedlock, cheating, stealing, or in this case, going to see Magic Mike!!!!!!

Judge, not that ye be not judged. For with what judgement ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again.

Matthew 7: 1,2 KJV" AL

Again, another quote with really great points! 


So, here are my thoughts. :)  

For me, I choose NOT to watch Magic Mike or read books like 50 Shades of Gray because I have a personal conviction from God about things like that.  I am very careful about what I listen to, watch and read and I feel like this is important for me in my walk with God.  I don't drink either.  Do I believe drinking is wrong or sinful?  No.  However, it is something that God put on MY heart, so I choose to honor Him in that way. 

That being said, I think it is very important for Christians not to play the Holy Spirit in peoples lives.  It is not our jobs to decide what is sin for someone else or to convict people of sin. Just because the Spirit has spoken something to us personally, doesn't make it our job to make others live up to that standard.  The Holy Spirit really doesn't need our help.  :)

I love Jesus.  I am a Christ follower.  But, you know what.... I have tattoos.  I cut my hair.  I wear makeup.  I wear pants and paint my toenails.  ALL of those things are on some peoples spiritual "no no" list.  But, you know what?  I live by what God tells ME and what I feel to be right and honoring to God in my own heart and life. 

I really want to encourage all you Christians out there to be careful not to judge others.  We ALL have something in our life that displeases Jesus.  Let's be like Jesus and show grace and mercy to others and let God handle His own business. :)

P.S.-- Regarding Facebook, keep speaking your convictions and heart!  It makes us all think and come to terms with what we personally believe ourselves and I love that. :) SJ

    ^"The plans of the mind and orderly thinking belong to man, but from the Lord comes the [wise] answer of the tongue.

    All the ways of a man are pure in his own eyes, but the Lord weighs the spirits (the thoughts and intents of the heart).

   Roll your works upon the Lord [commit and trust them wholly to Him; He will cause your thoughts to become agreeable to His will, and] so shall your plans be established and succeed." 

Proverbs 16: 1-3 (Amplified)

Three Months Later- 68 Pounds Down!

 

Today it has been three months and eight days since surgery.  I am down 68 pounds and have dropped 4 sizes in pants!  I finally feel pretty good most of the time.  Perfect, minus my hips still adjusting to my new weight and I still have an ulcer that seems to not want to heal.  Otherwise, though, having surgery was a great decision and I am so glad that I did it.

I start a new job on Monday in Downtown Greenville.  I have to pay to park everyday, which is new for me.  So, today I booked a spot 4 blocks from my office building and (I think) I am looking forward to the walk twice a day- except when it's raining or snowing, of course.

I am still waiting to see Dr. Murdock about my blood pressure meds.  Because I have lost so much weight, it is really time to adjust them.  I have been afraid to work out because sometimes I get really light headed and dizzy when I move too much.  Really looking forward to seeing him and getting that taken care of. :)

I went though my work clothes and had to get rid of 20 pairs of pants that were too big.  I am now in the smallest clothes that I own (mostly 14's), which is a good feeling.  I even tried my wedding gown on this week and it is also too big.  I am smaller now that I was before Jason and I got married!  I still have a ways to go, but I will get there. :)

Eating Out- Chick-fil-a Saves the Day!

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Having a gastric bypass changes your life in many way.  One way, the biggest way, is what you can and can not eat, portions and sugar intake.  More than a little (about 5 grams) will making you violently ill.  Plus, if you have gone though everything to get where you can eat real food again, you don't want to sabotage yourself by eating foods that will stop your weight loss.  

Enter Chick-fil-a!  Chick-fil-a has started offering grilled chicken nuggets in their kids meal!   Add in the fruit cup option (instead of fries) and sway out the soda for a milk, or in my case, a diet lemonade (sugar free) and you have yourself a great, size appropriate meal on the go!    To top it all off, you get all this for a little over $3 and in my case it took me two sittings to finish it. 

On another note:  I weighed this morning, the first time in about a week, and I met my second weight loss goal- UNDER 200 lbs.  I weighed in at 198, a weight I haven't seen in over 6 years.  That is about 59 pounds lost.  

A big thank you to Chick-fil-a for making it easier and tasty! 

2 Months Later- 53 Pounds Down!

I just got back home from my 2 month check in with Dr. Ross.  I must say, after everything I was going though last time I saw him, I, today, have NO complaints! I am down 53 pounds. :)

This time a month ago I was dry heaving so violently and so often that I seriously, at times, thought I would die.  I was so sick that when I was finished I would lay in my bed and cry! Come to find out after going in for an EDG (where they go down your throat with a light) and countless medications and calls in to the office, that it was MILK! Dr. Ross found out during the EDG that I had an ulcerated incision (inside) which was causing me to crave milk.  So, I was drinking a LOT of it because it was the only thing I could get down.  My cousin, who had the surgery years ago, told me that she couldn't drink milk any more, which promoted me to try to go off of it and see if that helped.  I was so desperate at that point, I would have done anything! So, I went off of milk for a few days and voilà!  I was not sick or nauseous at all.  Of course, I had to test this out and try one glass of milk, just to me sure.  I did and that whole day I was back to being sick.  What a relief to find out the source of my problem-- lactose intolerance!

Now that I am well, I just have to get my blood pressure meds adjusted so I don' t get light headed when I move too much.  Then, I am going to start working toward my first exercise goal of running a 5K!  I'll  keep you posted.

Recovery: One Month Later

Friday, April 13th, marked one month post op.  Today, Sunday, April 16, 2012, I am weighing in at 216.8 pounds.  Which means I have lost 39 pounds!  I tried on a dress yesterday that I hadn't worn since before Samuel was born and it fit, that was a pleasant surprise. 

I have heard that some people say that having bariatric surgery is the "easy way out."  For me, at least, there hasn't been anything easy about this journey yet.  Yes, losing the weight is great and there is something to be said for feeling like you are taking a proactive approach to your health, life and well being.  However, this really is a life change, and not always an easy one. 

People have asked me about feeling hungry or wanting to eat things that I can't.  The truth is, for me, that I have to force my self to eat.  The thought of eating is no longer enjoyable to me in the slightest.  I would really be happy if I never had to see food again! :)  I am never hungry.  Ever.  What does happen is that I feel like I have to eat because I know if I don't, I will be sick.  So, it's more like the brain telling the body to eat versus the stomach.  Learning to listen to my body and find a balance of the signals has proven difficult for me, but I am getting better at it.  Not enough food= nausea, sugar drop and dry heaving.  Too much= stomach pain, nausea & dry heaving.  Sometimes, for me, getting it perfect still means nausea and dry heaving!

Nausea has proven to be my biggest enemy during this time.  Currently I am on a double dose of nausea medication (one that they give chemo patients for nausea) and I am still in the bathroom at least once a day (if not more) dry heaving, sometimes violently, which makes me very sore and exhausted.  I will be calling the doctor tomorrow about some more help with this.  They have been great about helping me find a solution to get though this period, but we haven't yet found the winning combination.

I really had hoped to be further along in recovery by this point.  I feel like I have had a rough time, although, I have not had any complications from surgery at all.  According to the docs, everything I am going through is normal, although different for every person.  Apparently, nausea can last 3 days or 3 months and there is not way to tell because each patient is different.  

I have started walking with a friend four days a week.  We walk for 30-40 minutes during her lunch break.  Beyond that, I am still not leaving home regularly because I never know when I will be sick.  Baby steps, I guess.  The truth is, if the nausea and dry heaving would go away I would feel great!

I am very ready to feel good and normal again... or just NOT nauseous would be fantastic! 

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